I was expecting something VERY boring with adults telling us pointless things, and being practically bored to death.
But.
When I went it was for sure not the worst, and as it went on, a lady (Mrs. Orr) was speaking to us about... just life. And when she was speaking, things that I have heard over and over in my life, actually starting registering in my mind, and she helped me make decisions that I have been trying to avoid for sometime now. Everything she said almost is exactly what I've been going through.
I love all of my friends, even those who may make bad decisions, because who am I to judge? Especially when they are a long time friend. Some people may judge them, and me for that matter based on who I hang out with or past mistakes they've made. That isn't what God wants, he wants you to make great choices of course, but if you judge others and look down upon them for making bad choices it is just as shameful.
Anyway, I never do anything just because someone else wants me to, I make limits for myself, and I may be with people who cross those limits of their own, but that doesn't mean just because they do, that I have to... This might not make sense, but I know it is the right thing, I wouldn't want to "drop" a friend because of one bad choice, of course then again this is hypocritical if there is an entire path they are choosing to take that is not the best. Nevertheless just because I choose to be with these people doesn't mean that I have to take that path as well, see?
She taught us more things as well, such as reputation, language, how important faith is, and other things. Things that I have always known are important but, that doesn't mean I haven't fallen through with each one.
So, since "it is never too late" she says, I have decided on a couple of things that I am going to do to "spiff up my life", ha. :)
1. Put God first.
When making a choice think to myself, "If I could see God right now, would he be smiling?" Sounds cheesy, but true.
2. Not care what others think.
I'm actually pretty good about this one, like I have said before I have limits for myself, I listen to those, not what others' limits are for me.
3. Excersize more.
Not because I am out of shape, that isn't the only reason, ha :) but it is great for you to keep in good health, and make sure you take care of your body.
4. NO CURSING.
I don't know if you have heard me curse, but maybe when i'm in a playing mood or very angry, I do. It isn't attractive, it isn't funny, it's just stupid.
Smaller things...
5. Take more pictures.
I love love love looking back on old pictures and it brings back a flood of memories, I need to start carrying my camera on a leash ;)
6. GET OFF THE COMPUTER.
I'm on this thing... hmm... lets say... 24/7?
7. Don't quit.
I am indeed a h u g e quitter, maybe because I haven't found anything I enjoy, or maybe, probably, because I need more determination.
8. RELAX.
I have anxiety, I think because I am always worried, or on the edge. Even sometimes when it comes to people who maybe very kind but I am in one of those moods where e v e r y t h i n g is annoying, when that happens I need to calm down, and not get mad at them.
10. No drama, mama.
Ha, but seriously, there isn't much, but whatever is out there, don't get involved, when you don't say anything nothing can come back to you, and I know I will feel a whole lot better after I know I avoided a fight.
11. Self esteem.
I am confident, don't get me wrong, but sometimes (maybe because of the anxiety) I worry a little tiny bit, too much. I need to forget my flaws, and live life the
way God made me too.
12. Complete my bucket list little by little.
I made one that isn't even close to being finished that is 202 things so farrr, like I said not even close to being finished... But it will be there, I'm not just going to add and add I want to get this puppy accomplished by time lets say... 92? :)
13. Last but not least, BE THANKFUL.
When I go back to the top and read my first paragraph, it is pathetic. I am GRATEFUL that I even had the opportunity to go to a cotillion, and that the wonderful parents are trying to put this dance together for us teens, to have a little bit of fun for a night. Wow, I am ashamed that is what I thought when going to the class.
These won't all be easy to do, but over time I think everything will come together, to make me into a better person.
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